So once again, I'm starting a blog using the word "so" and apologising for the fact that I'm really lazy and never really make time to sit down and write stuff.
But we're here now and if you are reading this I thank you for clicking the link and having a nose.
The first month of 2018 is almost over and already I feel as if this year is set to be a good one. I've had wedding bookings and commercial work come through already. I'm not here to brag but it feels really fuckin good. I feel like this year is of to a good start and it is my duty to keep on top of things and make sure it continues to do so.
Last year was filled with small wins and a numerous fuck ups... While nothing was an absolute catastrophe last year, I cant help but look back and feel like I spent ninety percent of the time banging my head against the wall. While it's easy to look back at it and feel frustrated, I'm grateful that it all happened. I now feel like I have a firm grip on where I wanna go, what I wanna do and how achievable everything is.
I think the main thing I've learned is that everything takes time.... And I mean everything. Last year I think I was a bit naive in the sense that, I'd build a website, put an ad out and expect the phone to start ringing. Now I realise thats not the case... Fuck no.
Most months would consist of me panicking about the financial side of mine and Abi's lives. Constantly questioning myself and wondering why on earth I ever left my full time job. It reached a point where I was tempted to sell off the cameras and put this dream back on the shelf.
Now I'm not one for the whole "New year, New me" kind of attitude but I do feel a lot better after the Christmas period. I spent a good few weeks just taking some time out away from everything and gathering my thoughts. In doing so my perspective has changed and I'm grateful for all the hardship and hours of sleep lost.
Going into this new year, I've reached out to a few local businesses and people who I think are awe inspiring. Much like what I did with the "Devils & Details" project. This time though I did it to make sure I'm always behind a camera during down time. I think thats where I went wrong last year. I became a photographer that didn't take photographs unless he had to. Where as last year I connected with people to define my style, this year is more to connect with people, be creative and most of all, have a blast. I think the previous points are much like a muscle, if they are not practised or exercised, they can fall into disrepair making it hard to regain an acceptable form.
I feel like I've hit the ground running this year. I have invested in more kit, shooting with two full frame bodies for work and a snazzy little Fuji for personal stuff. I don't wanna feel a disconnect between myself and the every day stuff again. After all, it was that stuff that sparked my love for making images.
With that being said, I plan to start posting weekly stuff here to show what I've been doing. I say this for two reasons... Well theres a few but lets call it two for now.
1) To always be shooting and let you guys see what I like to shoot when work isn't involved. (hopefully become a bit more committed to blogging and posting work.)
2) Use it to be creative, learn something and be brave.
I've spent too long in the past obsessing over images and why they're not perfect, to the point they get exported to a drive and hidden from everybody. I wanna break that cycle. I wanna admit that some days I just shoot utter shit and not be embarrassed by it. With all the amazing photographers out there, it's often easy to be swept away with doubt and admit that you have off days. I'm sure even the photographers I idolise have horrendous days but cleverly disguise it or hide it.
I don't wanna hide, I wanna be bare boned and honest. I hope that as you read this you think "fair play, I can appreciate that" as opposed to... "Al's on one again"! I think as creatives a lot of us hide a lot of what makes us a human. Sometimes to the point of alienation. Like it's good to lead with ya strong foot forward... But sometimes it's also good to show a little bit of vulnerability. Think it helps people relate to you a lot better.
Anyhow, the suns shining and I have a load of washing that needs drying. So I'm gonna get outta here, finish up some house work and then hopefully get some sun on my chops!
Thanks for stopping by. Keep your eyes peeled in the next few days for new posts about recent shoots.