So in light of my last post I've decided to explore and follow new paths.
Reading books, watching tutorials, checking out exhibitions, writing music again and just generally trying to be creative and learn as much as I can in a day. So far it's been fun and I'm starting to feel a little more settled.
The past few days have been pretty fuckin badass. Spent a lot of time in the woods catching up with friends and practicing techniques that you could probably class as... Ummm... Bushcraft?! But on a more "I sort of know what I'm doing" level.
This weekend, if the weather holds out, a few friends and I will be heading back up to hang out, cook food, play some live music and no doubt enjoy some beers whilst capturing it through photography and video.
I shot film for the first time over the weekend. I'm not going to lie to you, I know absolutely sod fucking all about how to shoot film but I'll be honest, guessing the settings and kinda hoping for the best is pretty satisfying.Taking your time to ensure everything is pin sharp and really questioning whether the shot is worth it is a proper culture shock for me. I've never been one to just point and click and blast through memory cards but shooting film has made me aware of how many pointless shots I take on the fly. I'm now trying to use the experience of film to influence the way I shoot digital. Hopefully this will cut the plethora of pointless shit by half.
My focus has been more on natural light recently. Going through a lot of old photos has made me realise that all my shots are usually over exposed or really flat. So now to combat this there is a lot of trial and error with stopping down out of my comfort zone. Dexter and I took a blast round Hensol woods the other afternoon and we found a bad ass clearing in amongst a huge cluster of Larch trees. The natural light flooding in was beautiful so I geeked out and got the following image.
In other news I quit my job as a development chef. It didn't feel creative enough which in turn made me lose enthusiasm for creating dishes. At first walking away from my role filled me with a massive sense of guilt and failure. Its the first professional job I've had where I had meetings and deadlines. Although the role models, friendships, lessons, opportunities and experiences had were nothing short of amazing... it just didn't feel right. There was always a running commentary from my inner chimp that consisted of "Bro, is this you!? Bitten off more than you can chew?! Reeeeeally?!". My determination, ambition and general state of mind peaked and troughed so much I struggled to decipher what was a logical thought and what was me being a little bitch. So I strapped a pair on and handed in my notice. I feel a lot better for doing so, its as if a weight has been lifted.
I HAVE TO KEEP REMINDING MYSELF, I DIDN'T FAIL, I JUST TOOK A WRONG PATH FOR THIS MOMENT IN TIME.
I'm well aware that previous line in BOLD sounds like something straight out of a self help book.
Pretty stoked to announce however, that I'm returning to The New York Deli to work. A good friend of mine has recently taken it over. He is an incredibly business minded person and I'm excited as fuck to be working along side him and in time building an incredible food haven. I can't wait to get back behind the deli counter and repeating "gherkin, spring onion, black pepper?" a thousand times a day... Seriously! I've fuckin missed that place. The vibey customers and regulars. I'll be doing pretty much the same job as my previous job but with a few tweaks. I'll be behind the social media there as well so expect some obscene food photography in the next few weeks.
It's nice to feel like I'm heading back to somewhere that feels like home.
So there you have it. My second blog post. I've stuck to the mind set of doing things my way and documenting it. Feels pretty good knowing only a week has passed.